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Waited hours slipped by without trace, no remembrance, only a stillness in time. Agreements, sealed with love, doors, static and unknowing. I’d never experienced solitude like I did that day, like a flower separated from its stem, I lay dying. A death to amuse strangers, and occupy spaces. They say, When things slow to [...]  If I count to 3, perhaps the pain will go away. This silence is killing me, but it’s not the sounds that I miss. Today was yesterday, and I’m in need of something new. The stars are still shining above my head, but I’m too busy looking down. It seems I should find a [...] As I press keys on my keyboard, words appear, spelling out my insecurities like a Polaroid from years gone by. I painted a picture the other day, it’s facing me now, as if it had it’s own thoughts and preoccupations. I stare blankly back, looking past the layers of oil to the bareness of [...] What really matters? Sitting here monotonously chewing gum, looking past an empty reflection of myself in the monitor. Is it the words that I write, or the smile that they bring? I turn on TV, and see images of horror paraded like a carnival for the waiting public, and it doesn’t matter how much [...] Walking through another blackened wall, my thoughts crash against the mortar that’s holding me together today. My eyes are open wide, but the darkness is drowning me again, flooding my vision with discarded images, like a photo album time forgot. But it’s ok, really I’m ok. Tomorrow is only a day away. (April 2004) A copper moon falls from the sky, like a blackbird unbalanced by the wind. I breathe in this polluted air, thick with lies and resentment, a cloud of disruptive gloom hanging over my heart. -pause pause- I wait a moment for the pulse to catch up with my wandering thoughts, a cyclone of ideas [...] This smile can’t hide my broken memory, as the light bulb flickers in the corner of my darkened room. I’m still here but but people keep on walking by, a hint a invisibility, and my mind wanders to another place another time. When I awake, my eyes burn with a deep restrictive glow, a [...] A deathly stare from across this lonely room, but its anger is lost on me today. I sit in the most indecipherable air of thoughtfulness, cold yet warm from the tattered memories that run in sequence through my mind’s eye. Images of people, times and places merge into a haze of equilibrium, soft to [...] 0:57am, as I peer out into the impenetrable darkness that surrounds me. My breath freezes like a fog lost in time, and the walls are closing in on me. The sound my every movement is reverberated to a piercing scrape, entering my ear and extracting my sense of reason. My memory of the past [...] Every time I stand tall, I watch myself sit back down. Every time I think beyond my means, I watch myself contract. This is not an end. This is the start of the book, that has as many chapters as I have lives. I promise myself each night that tomorrow is going to be [...] |
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